Holy crap! I have two loose stitches in my cornea graft. The doctor said it’s too early to remove them and that I need to wait until at least 6 months before we remove any, that’s two months away! My first thought was ‘how the hell did they get loose after all of my care and adherence to the low activities?!!!’, but then the doctor explained that it looks like they are coming loose from healing, not from aggravation. Woo hoo! Does that mean my self-visualisation and healing methods are working? I’m going to go with that.
We talked about my vision loss and the doctor explained that part of my cornea degeneration makes things on the side go blurry, so I just have to keep moving my head around so that my eyes are focussing in on whatever I need to see. If you want to test what he means then fold your arms across your chest, now lift them up so that one is just above your eye brows and the other is in front of your mouth ... that’s my line of vision, that little gap is all I can see though.
He said that I still have enough peripheral vision to drive, thank god, though the strain from driving makes me tired pretty quickly so I’m not driving more than 20 minutes at a time. Interestingly when we looked at the eye chart I was getting a 6/9, which implies like awesome vision, however the eye chart only tests my straight line sight and it would take a few minutes for my eyes to be able to focus in on the letters. Given that I wasn’t reading the letters quickly I am surprised that they would include them in my test results.
As mum and I were driving home I realised that the birthday sex I’d arranged for the weekend was going to have to be cancelled. These two loose stitches need to stay in for another two months and I don’t want to do anything to cause them to break. With a loving partner, intimate, slow sex would be fine, but how can I trust a FWB to look after me and stay slow, especially when pre-cornea graft we were not at all slow and steady. Oh man! The things I have to give up for this eye! I can laugh at it though, I mean sex is great but nothing in the world is worth more than the chance of restoring my eyesight.
Four months down, eight to go.
I am at peace with what is...