My little cornea graft loves to let me know every moment of every day that he's there. If I use my eye too much then my eyelid goes puffy and each time I blink I can feel the stitches - STILL!! - nearly two months post surgery and I can still feel it. I think this is going to stay around forever.
There's this stinging pain that just smashes into my eye at any given time and extends all the way to my chest, as my heart stops beating and I stop breathing as I check in and ensure my eye is still ok. If I lift something that's over 4 or 5 kilos or if I carry a lighter bag for 20 minutes or more (ie while i'm at the shopping centre) then my eye hurts for the rest of the day and I'm stuck on the couch, exhausted, lying there in the dark hoping it will feel better soon.
My new best friend is Thera Tears, they are preservative free lubricating eye drops that the specialist recommended. I put them in every hour or so in both eyes. They feel so cooling and lovely in my graft eye and on my right eye they are really reducing the stinging and pinching that I'm getting.
I hate to admit it, but I am afraid of doing anything, I so scared that the slightest bump or stretch will tear my graft and I'll lose a stitch too early or worse, it will completely reject my graft.
The graft was causing so much discomfort the other day that I called into the specialist to check in on it. Thankfully he is so supportive and said that if I'm ever worried about the graft to just pop in as it's much easier for him to check it and give me the all clear than it would be to risk an infection or rejection.